Timing
Timing ?
What is this thing called Timing?
Why is it timing?
When things go wrong it goes wrong.
There was no timing.
When a person is in trouble,
There is no timing it just happened. Why blame the timing? The time is right there for you not you for timing.
People want to blame things, events, people, family, and accidents life.
There are no correct times.
There are no wrong times.
When people take their own responsibly on their own lives.
That is when times have changed.
We all have choices. We all had choices. We will always have more choices.
Timing is just a word to make excuses to feel better of things.
Do not blame the day, the minuet, the second or the years.
We have to take responsibility for our own choices.
No one really made us do anything.
We choose to do things.
We were asked, shown or influenced. We choose to make choices.
When we take our own responsibilities, life flows better no matter what choice we take.
I choose to trust people first. I do get disappointed more times than normal.
It is because I trust human nature more than others.
I let people have their choices as long as they were given more options.
I had a choice to love, live and believe in people.
Wrong or right I will not fight for their choice.
I get disappointed when people want to blame me for their lives.
The divorce which had to happen, as living with a man who cheated.. was destroying me on all levels.
They had a choice. They choose their path.
I do not choose to dominate another person.
As I know what it is like to be dominated, tormented, assaulted and harmed.
I know what it is like to have nothing, have something, give something.
I know what it is like to lose everything, lose a choice.
I also know when I love someone, believe in someone, something.
I know what it is like to be raped, abused as a child, to kill for food.
I know what it is like to lose a child.
I know what it is like to have cancer.
I know what it is like to be told that you have not long to live.
I know what it is like to have a car accident and fall apart.
I know what it is like to know that you were not wanted and only been used for different things.
I know what it is like to live through death.
I know what it is like to see someone die in front of you.
I know what is like to hold someone while they take their last breath and pass over.
I know what it is like to support someone.
I know what is like not to say good-bye to loved ones before they die.
I know what it is like to have that regret for the rest of your life.
I know what it is like to see others being hurt and you cannot help them.
I know what it is like to be ripped away from your family.
I know what it is like to be abandoned. As many never really been abandoned and left alone.
I had many choices to be bitter or sweet. I choose to be me now and if this is too much for you then that is ok too. As you have your lives to lead just as I have a life. Respecting each other is easy when you understand that.
I know what it are like to be a chef, businessperson, lover, and friend.
I know what it is like to live alone or with someone. It can be scary and devastating or it can be a relief and freeing. It depends on you and in that it took me a time to learn this simple fact.
I understand many things as you see it is because I know of these things.
I know what it is like to want to take your own life.
I know what it is like to be hurt by an abusive father, friend, and lover.
I know what it is like to have nothing on your plate, nothing to dress up in. Then again I understand that things can go wrong, then again I know that there is you. And in that, you will overcome everything when you have someone to cheer you on and inspire you, empower you.
I know what it is like to be tortured, humiliated and embarrassed. I then know what it is like to be held with warmth and love, which can overcome many hurts. To be welcomed into life and have someone share your life without judgements or anger but love and compassion.
I do know what it is like to live in someone else’s life, and the struggle of which you face to become your own person.
I know what it likes to be abandoned, rejected by people, family and friends. I and I do know what is like to have support form friends and some of your family. No one can ever take that away from you.
I learnt to survive and come back to life after dying a few times. To be poisoned and knifed.
To lose a child and parents ... family...friends. You will never fill their spaces in your heart but then when you remember the love, laughter and tears you shared with them. They are always there with you. In your heart and you will always remember them.
I know what it is like to be picked on, humiliated and disregarded in public and in private. The again I know what it is to have one person who believes in you, trust you, love you without judgements.
I know what it feels like to be not believed.
I know what it is like to have your dreams ripped away from you
To have your identity taken, money embezzled from you. To know who are your true friends when things go down a road which no one believes you and they turn their backs on you. There is one thing you will find out, It is if they were your real friends and what sort of personalities you were dealing with in the first place. Hard lessons as we all would like to believe that they really cared and the person who stood by you through it all was the person you never considered. Strange how we learn that lesson..
All these things and so much more.
Yet I still believe in others.
I choose to believe even with a few guarded moments. As life is always changing and you have more options even when you think you have none.
I know what it is like to be totally abandoned by loved ones and friends. And then a stranger comes to you and say’s to you don’t give up as you are worth so much more than those who abandoned you
To be out of work, struggling to live from moment to moment.
I know what it is like to live on the outer skirts of society.
Yet I still choose to believe in people.
I really know what it feels like to have noone there for you.
To have no living family member they’re as a support network.
Shit happens and many a time I have wanted to give up.
Something inside of me drives me to help others, even at the cost of my own life. As something kept calling me to music and to play it my way, to show that I do know what it is and I do know how to play instruments, when others could not. I played 14 trax of music, recorded it and nearly had it complete to give to the cancer foundation as a gift so that they could gain money for cancer. At this point in time it is on hold indefinitely and I now share what I played with special people in my life as I wont allow it to be placed in a draw and forgotten. Music is to be shared and heard not to be hidden and never heard or even sampled.
I am there when someone wants to hold a hand. I am there with a shoulder to lean on. Knowing that at times when the need for me is never met I will be there for those so that they know that someone cares.
I will be there to do the hard things when others flee. As I know what that is like and to have a person struggling with life is hard on there own.
I believe in helping others.
Listening to their lives and their words.
I will find out ways to help others and give them hope in one form or another.
I cannot give up this, as this is my choice.
Believe me or not.
That is your choice.
I cannot change your mind about anything; just give you more options to think about.
Just to let you know that there is always another choice and we can change our choices anytime.
It is really up to you.
o have gone back to school and I have gained 12 certificates and a Diploma or two and the funny thing is I done it from my own gut and I have achieved something more out of this that just papers of recognition. I shared my journey with a man who wont even acknowledge me now days, and it was to him and his friends who gave me a stubborn streak to show them, instead it showed me that I do have a right to live my life as me and not what they wanted me too..
This man said it was all my imagination and that things were happening because of our relationship ... may be then again maybe not. I fell for him and it is what it is..No one could tear me away from believing in him and his talent.. The did manage to scare him off.. I found I had so much more strength and endurance which inabled me to gain something more... My life to choose and to live... at being me.
I share my life so that you can see that there are more choices and more to live for.
I am older now, lived through many things. Learned more than most in life.
I share them because I want you to know that there are more choices.
I believe in the human person.
I just get disappointed when you do not choose a choice to live and love and believe.
Then again that is also your choice and I cannot choose it for you.
You can run away from things. You cannot run away from yourself or who you are. You can learn more to grow or you can just do what you are doing. Again that is your choice. Mine is to allow you to see what I have lived through to show you that there is a choice in everything and then there is a choice even with that
Timing ?
What is this thing called Timing?
Why is it timing?
When things go wrong it goes wrong.
There was no timing.
When a person is in trouble,
There is no timing it just happened. Why blame the timing? The time is right there for you not you for timing.
People want to blame things, events, people, family, and accidents life.
There are no correct times.
There are no wrong times.
When people take their own responsibly on their own lives.
That is when times have changed.
We all have choices. We all had choices. We will always have more choices.
Timing is just a word to make excuses to feel better of things.
Do not blame the day, the minuet, the second or the years.
We have to take responsibility for our own choices.
No one really made us do anything.
We choose to do things.
We were asked, shown or influenced. We choose to make choices.
When we take our own responsibilities, life flows better no matter what choice we take.
I choose to trust people first. I do get disappointed more times than normal.
It is because I trust human nature more than others.
I let people have their choices as long as they were given more options.
I had a choice to love, live and believe in people.
Wrong or right I will not fight for their choice.
I get disappointed when people want to blame me for their lives.
The divorce which had to happen, as living with a man who cheated.. was destroying me on all levels.
They had a choice. They choose their path.
I do not choose to dominate another person.
As I know what it is like to be dominated, tormented, assaulted and harmed.
I know what it is like to have nothing, have something, give something.
I know what it is like to lose everything, lose a choice.
I also know when I love someone, believe in someone, something.
I know what it is like to be raped, abused as a child, to kill for food.
I know what it is like to lose a child.
I know what it is like to have cancer.
I know what it is like to be told that you have not long to live.
I know what it is like to have a car accident and fall apart.
I know what it is like to know that you were not wanted and only been used for different things.
I know what it is like to live through death.
I know what it is like to see someone die in front of you.
I know what is like to hold someone while they take their last breath and pass over.
I know what it is like to support someone.
I know what is like not to say good-bye to loved ones before they die.
I know what it is like to have that regret for the rest of your life.
I know what it is like to see others being hurt and you cannot help them.
I know what it is like to be ripped away from your family.
I know what it is like to be abandoned. As many never really been abandoned and left alone.
I had many choices to be bitter or sweet. I choose to be me now and if this is too much for you then that is ok too. As you have your lives to lead just as I have a life. Respecting each other is easy when you understand that.
I know what it are like to be a chef, businessperson, lover, and friend.
I know what it is like to live alone or with someone. It can be scary and devastating or it can be a relief and freeing. It depends on you and in that it took me a time to learn this simple fact.
I understand many things as you see it is because I know of these things.
I know what it is like to want to take your own life.
I know what it is like to be hurt by an abusive father, friend, and lover.
I know what it is like to have nothing on your plate, nothing to dress up in. Then again I understand that things can go wrong, then again I know that there is you. And in that, you will overcome everything when you have someone to cheer you on and inspire you, empower you.
I know what it is like to be tortured, humiliated and embarrassed. I then know what it is like to be held with warmth and love, which can overcome many hurts. To be welcomed into life and have someone share your life without judgements or anger but love and compassion.
I do know what it is like to live in someone else’s life, and the struggle of which you face to become your own person.
I know what it likes to be abandoned, rejected by people, family and friends. I and I do know what is like to have support form friends and some of your family. No one can ever take that away from you.
I learnt to survive and come back to life after dying a few times. To be poisoned and knifed.
To lose a child and parents ... family...friends. You will never fill their spaces in your heart but then when you remember the love, laughter and tears you shared with them. They are always there with you. In your heart and you will always remember them.
I know what it is like to be picked on, humiliated and disregarded in public and in private. The again I know what it is to have one person who believes in you, trust you, love you without judgements.
I know what it feels like to be not believed.
I know what it is like to have your dreams ripped away from you
To have your identity taken, money embezzled from you. To know who are your true friends when things go down a road which no one believes you and they turn their backs on you. There is one thing you will find out, It is if they were your real friends and what sort of personalities you were dealing with in the first place. Hard lessons as we all would like to believe that they really cared and the person who stood by you through it all was the person you never considered. Strange how we learn that lesson..
All these things and so much more.
Yet I still believe in others.
I choose to believe even with a few guarded moments. As life is always changing and you have more options even when you think you have none.
I know what it is like to be totally abandoned by loved ones and friends. And then a stranger comes to you and say’s to you don’t give up as you are worth so much more than those who abandoned you
To be out of work, struggling to live from moment to moment.
I know what it is like to live on the outer skirts of society.
Yet I still choose to believe in people.
I really know what it feels like to have noone there for you.
To have no living family member they’re as a support network.
Shit happens and many a time I have wanted to give up.
Something inside of me drives me to help others, even at the cost of my own life. As something kept calling me to music and to play it my way, to show that I do know what it is and I do know how to play instruments, when others could not. I played 14 trax of music, recorded it and nearly had it complete to give to the cancer foundation as a gift so that they could gain money for cancer. At this point in time it is on hold indefinitely and I now share what I played with special people in my life as I wont allow it to be placed in a draw and forgotten. Music is to be shared and heard not to be hidden and never heard or even sampled.
I am there when someone wants to hold a hand. I am there with a shoulder to lean on. Knowing that at times when the need for me is never met I will be there for those so that they know that someone cares.
I will be there to do the hard things when others flee. As I know what that is like and to have a person struggling with life is hard on there own.
I believe in helping others.
Listening to their lives and their words.
I will find out ways to help others and give them hope in one form or another.
I cannot give up this, as this is my choice.
Believe me or not.
That is your choice.
I cannot change your mind about anything; just give you more options to think about.
Just to let you know that there is always another choice and we can change our choices anytime.
It is really up to you.
o have gone back to school and I have gained 12 certificates and a Diploma or two and the funny thing is I done it from my own gut and I have achieved something more out of this that just papers of recognition. I shared my journey with a man who wont even acknowledge me now days, and it was to him and his friends who gave me a stubborn streak to show them, instead it showed me that I do have a right to live my life as me and not what they wanted me too..
This man said it was all my imagination and that things were happening because of our relationship ... may be then again maybe not. I fell for him and it is what it is..No one could tear me away from believing in him and his talent.. The did manage to scare him off.. I found I had so much more strength and endurance which inabled me to gain something more... My life to choose and to live... at being me.
I share my life so that you can see that there are more choices and more to live for.
I am older now, lived through many things. Learned more than most in life.
I share them because I want you to know that there are more choices.
I believe in the human person.
I just get disappointed when you do not choose a choice to live and love and believe.
Then again that is also your choice and I cannot choose it for you.
You can run away from things. You cannot run away from yourself or who you are. You can learn more to grow or you can just do what you are doing. Again that is your choice. Mine is to allow you to see what I have lived through to show you that there is a choice in everything and then there is a choice even with that
