Saturday, September 26, 2015

My Poems, My Words

Poems

By Sonia F Stevens

My Imagination

My Words Of Wisdom

Sharing a part of my Life with you.

Just Words put together by my Feelings

Read them, Enjoy them. Feel them

They are shared with you.

Sonia F Stevens©2005 ∞

When your life is not well

This is a tail, I will tell.

Life is like a plant of life

When we are bourn

Each day is a new dawn

Regeneration is yours

Decide what you need.

Emerging from the dark earth

For it through difficulties

That we grow wiser and more compassionate.

Creative people have infinite source of financial abundance

Creative people have love and dreams

All within each other’s means.

Creative people should not hide from society

It is the creativity that helps us all to grow.

Copyrightã2005 by Sonia Frances Stevens

By your side

By your side

By Sonia F Stevens

Can you understand my words.

Or do you not believe in my words

How many occasions did I say truth

How many times did you go aloof.

How many occasions

Did life change your passions

How many occasions

I stood by your side, in all situations.

On how many occasions

Did you hurt my world

But I stood by your word.

But am I still here

And holding you so dear.

Am I not standing right here at your side

Filled with pride, to stand by your side.

Understand, I am with you

I will be loyal to you

My love is true for you.

Prayer

By Sonia F Stevens

Almighty heart of love

To you I entrust my life

To you I send all things

My anger, my pain, my sorry and my life.

Give me please the wisdom and grace

Open up my soul.

Reach in and take control.

I want my heart to be open

I want abundance in all love and wisdom, financial and grace, all around my place.

I forgive from my soul.

Let these worries dissolve with love

Give peace to bind.

Love mends the roads,

Love builds many bridges through time.

Means the rifts which uncertainty brings.

Love pieces us all together.

No more self destruction, war, deception.

Peace is the treasure.

Love opens our hearts and shows us the way.

Love gives me joy and abundance

It gives us this world to share and to live together.

Forgive all the hurts

Let the love rein your world

Love opens up the doors

Mends all the worries

Mends all the destruction.

Love brings joy to each other and brings us together.

Almighty one of love.

Break the bonds of all types of pain.

Who?

Who?

By Sonia Frances Stevens

A Lover is a person, who you give yourself to.

A Carer is a person, who is there for you.

A Partner is a person, who is totally shares with you and you with them.

A Mother is a child’s first teacher, carer and protector.

A Father is the full partner of the mother and is there for both.

A Son is an heir.

A daughter is an heir

There are the gifts from you for the future of your lines.

A Doctor is a medical man who helps you live.

A herbalist is natures carer for all of you.

A musician is a person who tells the tales in song.

Let no one ever tell you that you never belong.

They are completely wrong.

Everyone has the right to be.

And that includes even me.

The Secret

The Secret

By Sonia F Stevens©

If you hurt someone

That hurt comes back

If you comfort someone

They soon forget.

Maybe that is what life is about

Try to forgive that hurt

As it eats you up inside

It lingers on and it should not be given that energy.

As it s waste if your power.

Instead give your energy to comfort Friendship love, caring sharing and living

This is positive to you and the ones around you.

This gives you strength to move forward and to live your life to the fullest.

This gives you great rewards and happy and full filling in your life.

A man is ashamed of you if he cannot take you out or to meet his circle of friends and family

He is keeping you hidden and a secret.

But if the man asks you to join him in his circle you are welcomed into his real life.

Cole Raymond Paterson born 18/07/1949 kept me his secret, away from all his known friends and family.

He publicly denies me. He publicly humiliates me when ever his friends/ family are around or even talks to me.

Yet he comes to me for his pleasures and information and give me work for him, to do.

I was his secret until the day he hurt me for the third time. Till he hurt my spine and I had to report him to the police.

He hurt me Wednesday 7^th December 2005. I report the incident on Thursday the 8^th December to the police.

I ended up in the eye hospital on the 12-13 th December 2005 in Sydney.

Even though my spine was sore I had trouble seeing out of my Right eye.

My eyes and bruised face would heal, but my back is different.

That was the third time he hurt me, each time was worse than the time before.

First time was reported to the sex assault councilor They wanted me to report it then. I could not. I was see the counselor for the Rape.

I could not report any of this as it as this could all lead back to Cole.

Even his friends, tampered with my car breaks three times, I ended up changing my car.

That did not stop the massive rock been thrown through my driver’s door wile I was in the car.

No one would believe me about any of it, so I also erased all the threatening emails.

Stupid, but I had to find out who was doing this and threatening me.

Cole thinks it is all my imagination and it is me. I had to tell him, warn him, over and over again, but Cole could not believe me or did not want to listen to any of it.

He made me out to be the bad person.

I trusted him with all of my settlement money $160,000 and my most prized possessions.

For three years running I supplied all his kids birthday and Christmas presents and even his daughter’s education at the private school and her private lessons. Then this June A Person smashed a pot over my head had black eye and head injuries, doctors were extremely concerned was knocked out for two days and July I was sent flying in the train Stations.

Very badly bruised. Reported as an accident.

I am sitting here thinking, what else is he going to blame me for.

I am walking away

I believed, trusted and I still am very much in love with him

I still believe he is a better man than his “Friends” say he is.

Silly, But then I love him under all situations and will not judge him for his ways. I only want what he wants. And now it is for me to be out of his life.

Anchor

Anchor

By Sonia Frances Stevens

Even when my Life

Is upside down

And all turned around

I will have my love for you

Even when I am of the ground

Dreams are all around me

My life I have to find

Give me my time to move

To move all around

When Things are all over the place

I am still in this human race

Having my love around me

Even when I am upside down

And Lifted off the ground.

It is my love for you

That keeps me anchored

My dreams and heart are always there

When I know you are here by my side.

I am full of pride.

Keeping me safe

With the anchor of love

Which holds me close

And lets me find my common ground.

This is where I am found.

Birds

Birds

By Sonia Frances Stevens

When I write these words down.

I do not know where they are all bound.

The birds come flocking to my feet.

As though I am the one they want to greet.

They come closer each time

As though I have something to offer them.

Many stay with me

Some fly away from me

Then I walk amongst them

They just part their ways for me

At time they seem to circle me

Why does this happen to me?

I love it and appreciate it.

I do not know why

Are they my friends and protectors?

Or are they there to be with me.

Is this what the world is saying to me?

Child’s Seashore

Child’s Seashore

By Sonia F Stevens

On the sea shore

This is were the child will explore

In the sand and the rocks

There are mysteries for the child to unlock.

Near the water’s edge

They see creatures all on display

Carefully as they explore

The water laps at their feet

Letting the child feel water at their little feet.

In the rocks are mystery crevices and caves

For the child to watch and explore

Giving them imagination of what this came before

Giving imagination of what will come forever more.

For it is the child that is learning

To see the world in their own eyes

To find with feelings and with eyes of surprise.

The child sees the waves

Feel the winds of life at this stage.

To know that life is here for them

Right up until the very end.

To see the child’s face when they explore

Is letting the life come knocking at their door.

Giving them their chance to explore

Is opening the dreams great big door.

Encourage the child to explore

Gives us all hope, upon the shore.

Report on Men

Report on Men

By Sonia F Stevens

References: What Men Want

In our culture men are taken seriously because they do not talk about their feelings.

Women are not taken seriously because they are so open about their feelings.

Too introverted a man share easily, too inhibited to express his grief, he had to settled into an a biding melancholy that was sapping his mental and moral strength, those qualities humans call will.

A second way men handle grief is by going it alone. Men often give excuses for what they are doing or why they were not at work rather than openly saying, “I was so overcome with grief over the loss that I was not able to function or help anyone. I was hurting”.

Some men grieve alone to avoid weeping in front of others. Some men grieve alone to avoid burdening others, although they have been known to open up to strangers.

The emotions of grief are a constant challenge to men.

The ways men grieve simply point out once again the differences between men and women. Are these was of grieving wrong?

No man would admit or want to admit they are wrong, or even inadequate. Lets’ just say there are better and healthier ways to adjust cope and grow.

Sharing feelings and loss with others is a better way.

Some men have asked “But how can men do this if they are wired and trained no to be this way?” Perhaps the answers are, that a time of loss may be the opportunity time to become different. It is time to realize, “I am not in control of my life; I do not have all the answers; I have an abundance in different feelings; my beliefs that it is not safe to share and real men do not cry may not be accurate – there just may be a different and better way to live.

Once such realization takes root, the door opens for growth and a different way of living, which can be much better that the way of living now.

Affection

In the book “the Gift of Touch” by H Colton.

Observations of social scientist – Expressed this for behavioral outcomes.

Touching is an expression of affections. Women tend to desire affectionate touching more that the men do. Men perceive women’s’ needs for physical contact as weakness, but touch is really a strength to all who welcome it. Men could learn much from what women already know about closeness.

The importance is very powerful.

Affection is basic ingredient in any relationship. It can mean anything from a sexual interchange to a non-sexual touch. Touch is a powerful communication tool.

Affection touching generates the sensations of warmth security and emotional satisfaction craved by human being. Patting, stroking and caressing carry the nonverbal message of endearment and tenderness that we all need beginning at birth. The physical needs do not diminish when we grow into adulthood.

Security

Security involves trust. It means you can depend on the one you trust. You can rely on the person’s word. You can count on that person to back you and to praise you not only in your presence, but also when you are not there. You know the person in doing what is best for you. “They keep their promises, not matter what the cost”.

REF: What men want.

Cycle

Cycle

By Sonia Frances Stevens

The rain drops onto the ground

The water soaks through the dry ground.

It finds it way to the seeds underneath

Those were hidden from sight

Quenching their bodies with true delight

Expanding the reserves to start a new fight for life.

Pushing their presents up and into the light

Reaching to the sky with open leaves.

Making their mark, making a scene.

Joining with many for expanding their life

Flowering so they might produce a wonderful sight.

Knowing when they die that their mark was made

Leaving behind, new seed, new generations.

The seeds, which have fallen to ground

Letting the soil hide and keep them warm.

To start life’s cycles all over again.

Where they lay they are all in wait

Waiting for the next drops of rain.

To star life’s cycles all over again.

Now do you see what all our lives have to gain

No one is perfect, but there is much to be gained

In the life’s cycle, we all must remain

To see the beauty, which is around all of us, we have gained.

For without life, there is nothing to gain.

Do not let go,

You are a part of life’s great show.

Dolphin and Whale

Dolphin and Whale

By Sonia Frances Stevens

To the Dolphin and Whale

The almighty gave you the greatest gift

Nature and the Almighty gave you all

Of what spiritual and philosophers all try to seek.

You give friendship in pure form

A friendship, which asks nothing in return

No advantage is that friendship that is adorn

For which you’re all were all born.

A friendship, which is there,

For all of us to keep

Through it has helped many a man

You never asked for anything in return from the human, man.

You are genial friend to all of human man

You are a friend to all.

In the waters of blue

Your friendship is forever true blue.

You know the true meaning of Friendship

Better than any man.

I hear your voices from the waters deep.

Into my life, I want more

You have a friendship that I want to keep.

Your eyes of love and family I need

Thank you so much for allowing me to proceed.

Thanking you so very much.

With your slightest touch

You give it all and I thank you so much.

Showing the world what friendship means.

It is with that, which takes life to extremes.

That is what your friendship, that people seek.

Justice

Justice

By Sonia Frances Stevens

Oh, brightness light of justice

Guide and protect me

I have and hold divine love

I shall strengthen the hand of justice

Weaken the hand of injustice

For the good of all I wish it so.

I call forth all strength, wit and skill

I feel my power

I know my power

I control my power

I love with my power

I go forth to meet all challenges

For I am the mistress of my life

I am in harmony with it all

I am calm and in control of my life

All challengers bring me victory and success

So it is, So it was and so shall it be.

This is what life means to me.

Justice in life will always prevail.

For this is not fantasy tail.

Drama / Mystery

Drama / Mystery

Question?

By Sonia Frances Stevens

Time is now

Place in a home

Script outline

Entry

The police, etc are located at the front door.

Forcing the door. There is a slight smell lingering in the air near the door. They look at each other thinking that they do not like that slight smell and are hoping that it is not what it is behind that door.

The door has been opened and the strongest smell bombards out and they cover their noses. All what they had thought before the door was eventually opened has been confirmed.

The strong stench escapes out of the door.

They walk down the hall, looking searching. Checking everything out. The they arrive at the bedroom where the body lies.

Outside people are gathering and wondering what is happening. Wondering, assuming, criticizing, making stories up.

The police search the area and on the CPU was a Letter.

The Letter

Reads

(Voice over)

It is right for me to leave.

Times are Hard…

I, seem to have lost the plot.

All my life, I have lived as others wanted me too.

Was never able to be myself. Everyone liked me as that person.

Then when, I wanted to become myself..

Everyone, just could not believe me.

I tried so hard to be me, but people seem to dislike this. I told the truth about things when asked, but people wanted me to be lying.

When I married, I took all the blame, all the shame, and all the pain.

I stood with others when death was there, I brought husbands family back into his life. I brought the home and payed it off. Giving husband credit for all that I have done, taking blame and shame, so his family could join with him once again.

Then I had an accident and got ill, he then had to pay the bills.

I tried 7 times IVF after that, then things got worse. He found out that he was adopted. I had to be strong to ensure that he belonged- but you see I found out I was pregnant at the time and losing 500 mls blood per day. His mother also was diagnosed with cancer and was having surgery, I could not cope. Had to be strong for him and his family, I lost my child in silence. 2 weeks later he walked out.

Time passed. Was ill.

Had no one. No family, no one that I could trust so deeply.

The I met a man and I entrusted him will everything.

He took everything then publicly denied me, Publicly humiliated me ( his friends did this as I still could not believe he would do this)

His name is

Then I engaged in courses and wanted my own dreams to come to life. Even now, this is extremely hard for me to do.

I am alone.. Hard.

Men think, just because I am friendly that I want them(sexually) but actually I only want friends, some one to confide in, argue with, brainstorm with, share my thoughts and feelings with.

They flee.

I am tired of proving myself worth.

I am tired for being blamed , when I know I did nothing, but take on the blame of others, so they could be back with their families.

I am a fool, who really believes in people, hoping that someone could really discover that simple fact.

There is such pain inside me.

People have forsaken, that someone could believe in them so… That I only wish to have that respect which I give them, that I want someone to believe in me s me and not being used for that.

…………………………………………………..

Scene

The body was covered.

The body was removed.

They assumed she died by her own hand.

They did not understand it was a set up murder that looked like a suicide.

No one claimed the body.

The person, who cleaned the place, was actually the instigator of the death. (she pretended to be sad, to get the compassion and the victim sympathy from others.)

The case was closed.

When she there smiling, she thought she had gotten away with it, but you see this script was made. You have a chance to make your own minds up.

You, the audience, has a choice.

………………………………………………….

People will always assume that a life is wasted.

When you see this take note:

I died 6 times

I survived

I Lost 6 miscarriages

I lost the six children

I survived

I had cancer 3 times

I survived

I had been poisoned 2 times once as a child

I survived.

I had been abused as a child to extreme.

I survived.

I lost myself through others

To survive.

Hit by lightening

I survived

I seen death and murder

I was the one who dealt with the hard stuff. This is only the main portion of my life.

I was the silent person who kept all the secrets of others.

I am the Guardian of Secrets

Yet wheb I needed someone to share it. No one could believe what I had endured, so they made me out to be liar. When in actual fact it all was so very true and real and documented.

And I lived it.

My dreams were taken from me in early childhood.

You see, That is my life.

So please do not judge me too hard,

I did live.

I just went on a different path to many. I lived many life times, in one life time.

Forgive me. I lost my way.

I am now gone for the rest of this day..

Think

Think

By Sonia Frances Stevens

I do not want to feel like a dork in on the screen

I do not want to live others dreams

I do not want to be mean

I must bring my dreams onto earth s screen

Others want me to do this and that

To live their way as a matter of fact

Everyone confides in me

Sometimes they surprise me

They want so much from me.

I cannot live their life

I cannot take the blame for them any longer

I need to become so much stronger.

It is because it is their life

They made their choices

As I respected their choices.

Just for once I want them to respect my choices

As I respected their choices.

Light in Dark

Light in Dark

By Sonia Frances Stevens

I will never surrender to the Dark

I will stumble, hold on to the truth and believe

With all my heart

My heart has the light to go through the dark.

I will over come the dark with the light from my heart.

You may reticule me

Hurt me

Condemn me

The truth wets me free even when you do not believe in me.

The darkness may be surrounding me

My heart has the truth and light.

I am the one, who holds the light in the dark,

I am the one with love in heart

Who shows you all obstacles that lay before your path.

You will always have a choice to see

When you’re in the dark with me.

I will show you everything

Even, when you are in the dark or light.

There is no need any longer

To be afraid or live in the dark

You have a choice with me.

Justice

Justice

By Sonia Frances Stevens

Oh, brightness light of justice

Guide and protect me

I have and hold divine love

I shall strengthen the hand of justice

Weaken the hand of injustice

For the good of all I wish it so.

I call forth all strength, wit and skill

I feel my power

I know my power

I control my power

I love with my power

I go forth to meet all challenges

For I am the mistress of my life

I am in harmony with it all

I am calm and in control of my life

All challenger=s bring me victory and success

So it is, So it was and so shall it be.

This is what life means to me.

Justice in life will always prevail.

For this is not fantasy tail.

Lonely and Tense

Lonely and Tense

By Sonia F Stevens

Lonely now and tense

Light Years a part

I face them all.

I survived them all

I heard your voice, in that call

It was then I had a choice.

Now I know I will never part

I loved you right from the start.

Ur love lives deep inside both of us.

Now and forever

This love of ours will last a lifetime

Eternity and forever

Is not love very clever.

I never felt like this

It was when I heard your voice

It was then I was really given a choice.

It was all because of your voice.

Musicoz

Musicoz

By Sonia Frances Stevens

The man and family of Musicoz

Has made their mark in music of Australia

He has shown much dedication

To all Dreamers of our nation

Under the Southern Star

In our part of our constellation

Musicoz gives Australian dreams consideration.

Giving many a real chance

Giving many glimpses and hopes

Making sure that we can cope.

Giving dreamers a place

We can make a difference in our human race.

Giving a choice of choosing our time.

Giving places to dreamers with grace.

Letting the Australian Dreamers become life’s beamers.

Once, long ago

We, the dreamers had no place to go

We, the dreamers had no one to be our believers.

We were hungry to be known

We had talent that had to be shown

With Musicoz, now reaching

With Musicos, now doing the teaching

With Musicoz, now dreamers have true believers.

Now with the light of Musicoz light

The dreamers have found a place.

To hold their heads up with some grace

To show the world that we have a right in this place

We have our dreams that can shine so bright

We have our own bright shining light.

Thank you for your dream.

That gives us our dream.

Written Words

Saturday, September 26, 2015

My Poems, My Words

Sonia F Stevens©2005 ∞

Creative Life

Creative Life

When your life is not well

By your side

Prayer

Prayer

Who?

The Secret

Anchor

Birds

Child’s Seashore

Report on Men

Cycle

Dolphin and Whale

Justice

Drama / Mystery

Reads

Think

Light in Dark

Justice

Lonely and Tense

Musicoz