Saturday, September 26, 2015

The Secret

The Secret
By Sonia F Stevens©

If you hurt someone
That hurt comes back
If you comfort someone
They soon forget.
Maybe that is what life is about

Try to forgive that hurt
As it eats you up inside
It lingers on and it should not be given that energy.
As it s waste if your power.


Instead give your energy to comfort Friendship love, caring sharing and living
This is positive to you and the ones around you.

This gives you strength to move forward and to live your life to the fullest.
This gives you great rewards and happy and full filling in your life.

A man is ashamed of you if he cannot take you out or to meet his circle of friends and family
He is keeping you hidden and a secret.

But if the man asks you to join him in his circle you are welcomed into his real life.

Cole Raymond Paterson born 18/07/1949 kept me his secret, away from all his known friends and family.
He publicly denies me. He publicly humiliates me when ever his friends/ family are around or even talks to me.
Yet he comes to me for his pleasures and information and give me work for him, to do.

I was his secret until the day he hurt me for the third time. Till he hurt my spine and I had to report him to the police.
He hurt me Wednesday 7th December 2005. I report the incident on Thursday the 8th December to the police.
I ended up in the eye hospital on the 12-13 th December 2005 in Sydney.
Even though my spine was sore I had trouble seeing out of my Right eye.

My eyes and bruised face would heal, but my back is different.
That was the third time he hurt me, each time was worse than the time before.

First time was reported to the sex assault councilor They wanted me to report it then. I could not. I was see the counselor for the Rape.
I could not report any of this as it as this could all lead back to Cole.
Even his friends, tampered with my car breaks three times, I ended up changing my car.
That did not stop the massive rock been thrown through my driver’s door wile I was in the car.
No one would believe me about any of it, so I also erased all the threatening emails.
Stupid, but I had to find out who was doing this and threatening me.
Cole thinks it is all my imagination and it is me. I had to tell him, warn him, over and over again, but Cole could not believe me or did not want to listen to any of it.
He made me out to be the bad person.

I trusted him with all of my settlement money $160,000 and my most prized possessions.
For three years running I supplied all his kids birthday and Christmas presents and even his daughter’s education at the private school and her private lessons. Then this June A Person smashed a pot over my head had black eye and head injuries, doctors were extremely concerned was knocked out for two days and July I was sent flying in the train Stations.
 Very badly bruised. Reported as an accident.

I am sitting here thinking, what else is he going to blame me for.

I am walking away
I believed, trusted and I still am very much in love with him
I still believe he is a better man than his “Friends” say he is.
Silly, But then I love him under all situations and will not judge him for his ways. I only want what he wants. And now it is for me to be out of his life.

Copyrighted©2006-2007 by Sonia F Stevens

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